50

Today I am 50 years old.  50 is such a big number.  At least, to me it is. My grandmother (from my father’s side) was 50 when I was born.  50 is two times 25.

I remember when I was 25.  I was working in Puerto Rico.  I had a permanent job at one of the local government offices as a typist clerk.  I thought that was it, even though I struggled with the low salary.  I thought that the benefits were worth the very low pay. I wish I knew better.

Recalling that by the time I had started that same job, my cousin who had moved to Texas recently went to tell me that she had come to take me to Texas with her.  I felt tempted, yes but I also didn’t want to leave my mother and sisters.  I was scared of being away from my family.  But God has a time for everything.  Maybe back then, the timing was not right.

If I were to talk to my younger me; what would I say?  I would probably tell myself not to get discouraged by depression.  A lot of my mistakes were caused by my internal struggles with insecurity and fear.  I would’ve advised myself to ignore certain guys that broke my heart knowing that I still ended up alone.  I would tell myself to make more in less time; to look for short cuts and don’t be afraid of big changes.  I should’ve stop looking for a comfort zone where I could feel safe all the time.  To get out and dare to seek for something different and better.  I wasted so much time being afraid of failure and not daring to persist and insist on working with my talents.

I wish I wouldn’t have wasted so much time thinking that youth would last longer.  I look at myself in the mirror and now I see my mom.  I never noticed before how much I look like her.  I hope that I can leave a good legacy to my daughter and that she turns her heart out to God in every season of her life.  We are still here because of His mercy and nothing else.

Just one more thing before I end up this post:  last night I received a message from God.  I had a dream where I was entering in an open room.  It was so clear; open windows, open doors and I saw a radio that was playing Christian music.  I didn’t recognize the song but I did notice that it was a female voice singing.  She had a beautiful voice.  I can’t recall exactly the lyrics of all the song.  But I do know that it was talking about Jesus.  The last words of the song were kept in my mind as I woke up:  “This is my final warning: I am coming soon”.

Here’s to the next 50!!

 

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Between Autumn & Chris Tomlin

 

I’m sitting here in my apartment in Tyler, TX.  It’s been a long time since I last wrote on my blog.  Yeah, I’ve been kinda lazy in the blogging thing but not lazy from my work which I’ve been doing incessantly since I began last August.  Everything in my job is been going well.

I’ve had challenges but they are nothing tragic and are the same trials and situations every teacher has to face everyday.  I’m still learning; yes, every teacher is a student also. Our students make our lives more interesting and adventurous.  It also helps that I work with an awesome bilingual team by my side.  We work together, we laugh together but most important: we respect each other.  If respect between coworkers is lost; working together would be miserable and nothing short of imposible.  I would be the first one to bail out.  It would be Faith Family Academy all over again and I don’t want or need that ever again.

Well, enough of that.  Last night I checked off one of my bucket list wishes and it was to see Chris Tomlin in concert.  I have wanted to see him for a long while now.  I love his music and I have posted in previous pages many videos of his songs.  Well, last night he closed a two-day concert in Tyler of his “Good, good Father” tour.  And I was fortunate enough to attend the last day.  It was wonderful!  I also discovered that he was born in Tyler, TX.  Everywhere in the internet it says that he was born in Grand Saline but he admitted last night that Grand Saline is the place he was raised.  He was actually born in Tyler and he studied and graduated from Tyler Junior College (TJC).   So he felt at home.

Something we have in common: I feel at home in Tyler too.  I have come to love Tyler so dearly.  I never wanna leave.  I feel so sad when I think of Puerto Rico where I was raised for so long.  Puerto Rico is going through so many trials right now.

I remember many years ago, how God had used prophets to prophetize everything that is going on with PR right now.  The devastation, the desperation of the people, the increase of crime and the people leaving the island.  I know God took me out of there in His time and I’m thankful for that.  Now, I’m waiting for that miracle when my family that still lives there can leave too.

And last but not least, summer went away and winter just arrived.  What happened with Autumn?  I don’t know.  Right now, temperatures have been in the 30’s for the last days and previously they were in the 90’s.  So we skipped Autumn it seems…

Life is such a curious thing and so is the weather in Texas!  Have a great week and God Bless!

Not Giving Up

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Whenever I see a road; I think about all the things that I may encounter on my way to whatever destiny I may have.  In life we will encounter many obstacles or stones that can be circumstances or people that will make our life challenging.

This picture that I took while I was walking in a park at Tyler, TX shows a very smooth road; but life isn’t like that.  The road of life has lots of curves, bumps, stones, hills, cracks, edges, inclines and all kinds of dangers.  When we trust God; we walk with Him through all of those bumps and stones in life.  Many times He will take the dangers out of our way; sometimes danger will touch us, stones will hit us, we will tumble on the edges and we might fall down a cliff.  But through all of this living God will be with us.

All of these challenges have a purpose in our lives.  The purpose is to help us be a better person; learn to love, to forgive, to not hold unto grudges, to fight less and let God do the fighting for us.  To go through the fire is to be purified from the hatred, the depression, the extra sensitivity, the ego, the hurting….. How can something that hurts heal us from the hurting?  It’s not easy.

It’s the admission that we can’t do this alone.  We have to surrender our pain, our will to fight with our own strength, our own decisions on how to solve our problems.  If we decide to fight on our own; God will step aside and let us deal with it.  But if we let Him do the fight; believing in our hearts, surrendering the pain and the hatred in our hearts, we will see His hand taking control of every stone, cliff, crack in our lives.  Sometimes the stones will stay; but we will see how God takes care of them for us.  We have to stop fighting our battles and let God fight for us.  He has never lost one fight!

Turning our backs or fighting against God is the worst decision we can make.  We will lose.  Losses will include: health, spiritual peace, mental stability, financial stability, peace of mind, happiness and overall security.  Gains will be: hatred, grudges, fights, unhappiness, depression, physical illnesses and spiritual death.

I saw this happen to my father.  He was an atheist almost all of his life.  He came to Jesus one month before he died: sickness had a hold of his life because he had lived his life making his own decisions.  If he would have given his life to Jesus while he was younger; he would still be alive.  But thank God for His mercy.

Not giving up is always the best choice in our lives.  It is hard, but it’s totally worth it!

Reflections

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Here I am relaxing on my 3rd day of summer vacation.  I should’ve written something before the school year ended but I was so stressed and had so many things to do, that I couldn’t.  I still have stuff to do; but I have a little bit more of free time to write and reflect about how life has unwrapped these past months.

I am grateful to God that He has helped me accomplish finishing my internship during this school year.  So many times, I doubted myself but God put in my path the right people who supported and helped me more than I could’ve ever dreamed of.  Looking back at my experiences the good days outweigh the  bad days by far.

It’s been one lesson after the other.  God took me to the right place and with the right people.  Being a teacher isn’t possible if you don’t have great coworkers; meaning other colleagues and a great administration.  I am so sad that my principal and two assistance won’t be there next year but I’m hopeful that God will have the right administration to follow this next year.

Yeah, my contract was renewed for another year.  I will stay all the time they will have me because I loved working this year as a teacher.  The days when I hated my job seem so far away now.  I know there were days when I felt tired or not motivated to deal with the kid’s attitudes; but knowing that I wasn’t alone feeling this way; praying each day and seeing how God would take care of the things that I couldn’t help so much.  I learned to love what I do.

Unconsciously I expected something bad to happen; it was my own fears motivated by previous bad experiences.  Nothing happened.  God was there; always.  I feel that I am where I’m supposed to be at least for a good amount of time.

God provided me for furniture and money through my colleagues; something I never expected in my wildest dreams.  I found a family far away from home; it feels wonderful.  I’ve been so blessed.  Now we have beautiful and fun plans for the summer and I put all in God’s hands as always.  Enjoy this summer with your loved ones and be forever grateful.

 

Change Of Life

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It still amazes me how our body goes through constant changes or stages that happen during certain periods of our life.   We can only notice the most obvious things like weight changes or probably our height or more  grays in our hair.  But the wrinkles appear little by little and the drastic changes appear mostly in our 40’s.

I went through a lot of weight changes in my 20’s and 30’s but other important changes came in my 40’s specially the hormonal kind.  I remember that in 1978; I was already 10 years old and was finishing my fifth grade.  I wasn’t oblivious about what it meant to have a first period; I was being raised among females: my mom and two sisters.  My older sister was going through her changes with me as a witness.  So that morning when “the rooster sang” (term used in my family to describe a first period in a young lady) I knew what it was and I just went to my mom to ask her what should I do next.  She provided me with what I needed to have at the moment.  I still remember like it was yesterday; but it was actually 40 years ago.  And time goes by…

Now my new memory is how I expected my monthly visit to come as usual but since last December it hasn’t.  It’s the first time it hasn’t arrived since I got pregnant almost 15 years ago.  So, I have to assume that I’m going through another change.  I did the same thing I did almost 40 years ago: I asked my mom what should I do next.  She provided me with what I needed to know and her own experiences.  I’m so grateful to God that I still have her even if now she is far away from me.  I hope that I can be with my daughter when she goes through all of her own changes.

So I welcome this new change in my life.  The end of a life stage is the beginning of another.  I don’t know where it will lead me but as long as I have God and the right people by my side; everything will be alright.

2017 Is Here

happy-new-year-2017-backgroundJanuary 1st: first day of the year and last day of the Holidays.  I looked upon the window since last night and it was very foggy.  It is still very foggy today at 9 AM.  So I guess what nature is saying is that this New Year will bring a continuation of what was going on in 2016.

Many people wanted 2016 to leave so fast; but I remember when the previous year they wanted 2015 to leave in the same manner so they could receive 2016 with a lot of hope.  They will probably feel the same one year from now.  We all have great wishes for happiness for a new year; but we have to appreciate the good experiences plus the bad ones.

The first months of 2016 were not easy on me.  It was a first half year of lessons, trials and transitions.  I had to make a lot of decisions but thank God,  on the second half of the year I made good ones.  Now I’m happier than when 2015 left and 2016 started.

Let’s appreciate the time we have in this physical plane and grow each day in it.  I pray that this New Year brings for you happiness, joy, health, prosperity, good decisions and much, much love.  God Bless You and your loved ones!

That Sweet Bond

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When I found out about Carrie Fisher’s death yesterday; just like a lot of people out there: I cried.  I felt like someone very close and dear to me had left and I mourned.  But I also thought about her mother Debbie Reynolds.  I knew that she was suffering more than anybody else.

To outlive your child is the worst nightmare for a parent.  So when the news about her demise was announced earlier today; I could understand why she couldn’t stand being away from her beloved daughter.  A mother knows how strong is the bond between herself and her child.  It’s stronger than death itself.  It can be said that she was heartbroken or that she had a condition which she never treated and the stress of the moment just triggered that physical response.

I admire those women who lose kids and keep living on.  I know that their lives are not the same but they are strong willed and keep the memory of their children alive with them.  I don’t know if I could outlive my daughter if she dies before me.  I hope I never do and I pray that nobody else has to go through such horrible experience.

I pray for everybody that has lost a loved one during this past year. We lost our grandmother and one of our dear uncles last October.  May God give peace and strength to all who mourn today.   RIP Carrie Fisher & Debbie Reynolds.

Love is stronger than death…

Merry Christmas

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Wow!  Time is flying so fast, I can’t believe that I made my last post two months ago.  I bet you were thinking I wasn’t going to write on my blog again. Well, I thought I wasn’t gonna write anything either….  But yet, here I am.

During November I worked a lot; my Mom came to visit Anna and me here in Texas. She visited during our birthdays and Thanksgiving.  It was a peaceful time; we ate a lot and rested.  But I also had to take some tests for my teachers certification.  I passed them all, thank God.  He is working with me and in me.

During this Christmas we’ve been waiting for some snow; but no; just like last year it’s been raining a lot.  I hope there are no tornadoes.  But the good thing is that I’m in my Christmas vacation.  School starts on January 2.  I’ve survived one semester and God willing I will continue until the end of the school year.

Well, I wish for you and your loved ones a peaceful Christmas Eve and a wonderful Christmas.  Always remember: Christ is the reason for the season.  God Bless You!

Jesus Is Coming Soon

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Approximately two or three months ago, I had a dream where I saw myself and some members of my family in Washington, D.C.  We were specifically at the White House, inside the Oval Office.  We were having a very intense discussion about the verse in Revelation 4:7 “The first living creature like a lion, the second living creature like an ox, the third living creature with the face of a man, and the fourth living creature like an eagle in flight.”  The President was not in the office; it was just me and my family involved in the discussion.  We were observing the great seal of the United States that was on the floor and comparing it to the fourth living creature of the Revelations’ verse.

I remember how in my dream I kept observing the President’s desk and his chair.  I could observe different folders of top secret documents.  And then I started to bang the desk while the Holy Ghost inspired me to say this message: “United States, the Lord wants you to remember that JESUS IS COMING SOON!” 

After that message, I felt how my body began transform in the blink of an eye and started to elevate to the Heavens.  Then I woke up.  I know that I should’ve wrote this message a long time ago when I had the dream, but being that this week are the elections, I think it is still time to share it.

No matter who will be President: Jesus Christ is still King and yes, He is also coming very soon. So let’s be prepared. Praying and doing what we have to do.  He has the world in His hands.  Have a great week!

Life Goes On

 

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Three weeks ago, I received a call from a dear friend.  We talked about many things that were going on with our lives.  She is like an older sister to me; we’ve been friends since the early 90’s.  She is a woman of great faith and an awesome testimony.  I was telling her that in the last months, I had been having dreams that foretold that my family was going to have a loss.  That means death.  She asked me, how did I know that.  I had been having dreams that I have been losing teeth and that I saw an old flat tire that wouldn’t move no more.  I also remembered seeing my grandmother laying on the floor all battered and hurt.  All those dreams had been bothering me for a while.

Well, two days later after talking to my friend; my uncle Robert died from a heart attack.  He was my mom’s older brother.  It was a very sad loss for my family.  He was a funny man, loved and cherished by all who knew him.  That occurred last week while I was in a Bilingual Convention in Galveston.

We were still recovering from this death when I just received the sad news hours ago that my grandmother passed last night.  Last week she had fallen and broke her arm and hit her head.  Since last weekend she was at the hospital and after Wednesday she closed her eyes and never opened them again.

I know God had been preparing me for these losses; but it still hurts.  I pray for my family and for those who are also going through losses in their lives.  May God give us peace, strength and comfort during these days.  May us never loose faith that He will sustain and hold us no matter what comes to our lives.  He is Faithful. Always.

My Favorite Season: Fall

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I love the color changes of the Fall season. The cooler breeze, the falling leaves, the Thanksgiving Day and of course, it’s also birthday time.  So, the weather people say that the temperature here in Texas will get cooler this next week.  That’s good because the 100’s and 90’s are really getting me tired.

I have a beautiful view whenever I go back and forward from work.  Tyler and Jacksonville are so beautiful; I still can’t get enough of the country life.  It’s so peaceful and quiet.  The Dallas city life wasn’t good for me; but now things have changed for the better.

Let’s be thankful in this new season; I know elections may distract us a little bit.  So let’s pray for the U.S.A.  There’s a lot of people who are praying for this country; I include myself.  Good things are still coming for those who seek His mercy and wait upon His promises.  Even in the times of trials and loss, He will give us peace that passes understanding.  I wish you and your family a wonderful Fall season.

Saturday, August 6

New journey for me

Well, tomorrow is the day that I dreamed about a while ago. I described about that dream in the previous May 22 post titled: “Dreams”. I’ve secretly been waiting for tomorrow.  As a recapitulation: I remember in my dream seeing very clearly on a calendar that August 6 was going to be a Saturday.  And I’m the kind of person who never knows when a particular day will be a Sunday, Tuesday or any day of the week unless I look it up on a calendar.

I wonder if anything good is gonna happen.  I don’t wanna think that anything bad might happen.  I don’t have any particular plans for tomorrow; just study for the Special Education test that I have to take for next week.  I pray that my loved ones will be OK and it turns out to be a peaceful day.

These days have been a little tense because I’m in conversations for a new teaching position.  It involves a move to another county.  It could be stressful, but nothing can be more stressful than moving from one country to another.  Been there; done that.  We’ll be fine.  Thinking about it, it’s actually gonna be exciting to go to a new place.  Meet new people, go to new places.  Let’s see what happens.  All I know is that tomorrow will be the first day of the rest of our lives.  Have a great weekend!

The Perfect Candidate

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These days where politics are making headlines toward our next elections; I hear what each political party is offering through their candidates.  I have already made my mind about who I’m gonna vote for but I have to admit that I’m don’t agree completely on what my candidate offers.  I think that Democrats and Republicans are completely opposites in many things and I wish there was a candidate that would have a posture right in the middle of both.  For example; my ideal candidate would:

  • Be more strict with immigration but not in the extreme of exercising mass deporting. I do believe that every citizen has to be legal and that something HAS to be done with the illegal immigration.  But I also believe that we can’t separate families in-distinctively.  I also think that we can’t have Syrians running all around the country because of what has been done in their countries.  Not all Muslims are bad….but who can completely tell who is who?  It’s a matter of national security to let dubious characters who could be terrorists in disguise easy access to our country.  Terrorist attacks are a reality and there are threats done.  We can’t be so trusting.
  • This country needs to help Veterans and the Military but not in the extreme of neglecting the poor or starting wars with other countries.
  • There should be more rigid laws for gun control.  Too many crazy people have easy access to dangerous weapons.  These shoot outs have to stop.
  • I believe in equality but not in gay marriage.  LGBT are people and they deserve to be treated like human beings, they deserve to have jobs, be treated well in hospitals, buy houses and have a decent living but the church can never recognize their union as legal.  Marriage is a sacred union institutionalized by God.  If they want to have legal unions….it shouldn’t be done by a “marriage”; they could use another legal resource for same sex unions like maybe a legal partnership to assure inheritances and stuff like that.  But, two wives or two husbands??  It’s ridiculous. And most importantly, the LGBT people should never force the church to accept their unions as legal because they’re not.  God does not approve gay marriage and neither should the church. It’s anti-biblical. Period.
  • Abortions should only be conditional for medical reasons or rape.  Nothing more.  That’s why contraceptives exist.   If you don’t want to get pregnant there are ways to prevent it.

There are more points that I think that each political party defends or criticizes.  I wish there was an in-between.  But that’s what happens when one party wants to contradict the other.  Then there can’t be in-betweens.  We are in trouble.  May God have mercy!

Happy Father’s Day!

I wish God’s blessings to all fathers out there.  Thanks for all the sacrifices, the time spending, money spending, long conversations, ball games, plays attending, the scolding, the looking out, the laughs, the tears and all between.  You are not just a dad….you are a super dad!!

 

Voice Competition

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I know my voice isn’t what it used to be when I was in my twenties, but I dared myself to enter to a voice competition.  I will really appreciate your votes because the grand prize would be a real blessing for me and my daughter.  So, if you have time and you like me enough: cast your vote for the only contestant from Texas (for now, it seems).  I will really appreciate it.  Down is the link for the competition,  click where it says “View Qualifying Round” and then on the map click where the state of TX is and there you’ll find me.  Thanks!!

https://competition.virdition.com/sing-your-praise/lauriann-cruz

 

Shared Message

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I’m sharing this message that a friend of mine in Facebook posted on his timeline.  It’s exactly my feelings and my thoughts about the horrendous attack in Orlando:

What happened yesterday in Orlando was NOT God’s judgement on the United States nor was it a judgement on the victims’ lives. This was a terrorist and hateful act against human beings by a human being who was twisted by his beliefs.

Were many of them gay? Yes. Was the killer a Muslim of Afghan ascent? Yes, also. But let’s not make this a referendum to legitimize or not gay/lesbian behavior, or to establish if Muslims are good or not. The Bible makes that point very clear: “For all have sinned and are cast away from the Glory of God”.

That’s not the issue here. The issue is the disregard many have for human life. Jesus called it the “hardness of the heart”. Those killed by that young man were people, totally worthy human beings. And were finished by a religious nuts, self-justified by his radicalized beliefs. That’s why NO religion, NONE WHATSOEVER, is worth nothing.

Religious folks: don’t make a field day using the pain of those implicated. Gay activists: don’t make a field day using the pain of those implicated. Let us be sensible and balanced, and let’s have compassion and mercy.

Every murder, be it of one or six and a half million; of gays or straight; of Christians or Muslims, is an inhumane act, is sin, is bad, is to be damned, and is painful. And God, the Father that created them and us, does not want anyone to be lost, but for everyone to proceed to repentance and to come to the glorious knowledge of His Son, Jesus Christ of Nazareth.

Let me reiterate that not the Christian religion, nor the Muslim religion, can do anything for anyone. Only Jesus Christ of Nazareth, the Eternal Son of God, the Most High God, can solve the problem of terror, hate and death. How? Everything starts with you. The same hardened heart that drove that kid to kill fifty other human beings can drive you to do the same, or worse.

The Bible says that “the whole world is under the evil one”. How do you break free of the evil one’s influence? Simple: surrender your life to Jesus Christ of Nazareth and trust in Him. Accept Him as the Lord and Savior of your life, and you shall be saved. The solution, ladies and gentlemen, is Jesus Christ of Nazareth, and nothing or nobody else.

Have a great day today, and may we come to the glorious knowledge of God and of His Son, Jesus Christ of Nazareth.”

Joel J. Seda Orona

Nuff said!  That’s why I had to share.  My prayers for the wounded & relatives of all of the victims.

 

Canta

I need to share this experience I had last night.  It was one of those special dreams.  I can’t say how this dream started.  But in my dream, I was talking to God.  I could see like a clear mist surrounding me and I could feel His presence so close as if His arms were embracing me.  But the most wonderful part of this dream was when I heard His voice clear as day speaking to me.

Now before you think that it’s a schizophrenic thing or that I’m hearing voices…etc. just read me out first.  The voice I heard was a sweet low baritone voice.  He spoke perfect Spanish, without any distinctive nationality accent.  You see, God is not a Spaniard, or Cuban, or Mexican or Puertorrican.  He is the Maker of languages, He speaks any language in the way it should be spoken.  It was a perfect pronunciation.

I know that I was speaking to Him (I can’t really remember what I was telling Him first) but I clearly heard Him saying: “Canta“. (Canta is the Spanish word for Sing).  I replied to Him: “How do you want me to sing?”  He answered: “They let you sing, right?”  Meaning that in church it is allowed for anyone to join the praise team.

Now during this exchange of words with Him; I could also feel how He really wanted me to sing for Him; that He enjoyed listening to me praise Him but that there was also a purpose behind this request of his.

I answered: “Yes…”  But still feeling His presence so close to me, I remembered that to sing I need my voice. I haven’t been able to sing for months now. So I added: “Lord, I need you to heal my voice.”

That’s when I saw His hand reaching to my face; with two fingers He opened my mouth and touched the back of my throat.  Then I woke up.  But the wonderful part of this experience was that even while I was awake I could still feel his fingers inside my mouth touching my throat.

This is very far from having schizophrenia.  But you may ask: “Why is she having these experiences?”  The answer lies in Jeremiah 33:3 “Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known.”

Pray to Him; seek Him in the wee hours of the morning.  He is available at 1…2…3 AM.  Those are the best times to reach Him.  He is listening in the silence of the night.  He is always there waiting for you to call.  And He will show you mysteries and you will be able to do wonderful things in the name of Jesus for the growth of His kingdom on Earth.

Dreams

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Have you ever had a dream that comes true?  It has happened to me many times but lately I’ve had two experiences with dreams that I’ve never had before, like finding out that details revealed in my dreams are in fact; true.

The first one was a dream that I had probably like a month ago or so.  I don’t remember well the details.  I just remember seeing in my dream my daughter’s best friend and her mother.  Anna and I were supposedly going with them to the state of Tennessee.  (They own a house in Florida, not Tennessee).

(One of the reasons that this is strange is because the only places I knew about Tennessee were Nashville and Franklin.  Besides that, I didn’t know any other places from that state.)  Well, in my dream we were going to a place called Portland.  In my dream I clearly saw the map of the state and on the Northeast of Nashville I saw where it was located.  When I woke up from the dream, I was curious about the info that I had just received and when I searched on my cell phone if there was a place called Portland, Tennessee: I got goosebumps when I found it and almost exactly located where I saw it on the map of my dreams.  I can assure you that I have never heard in my life about this place before.

Well, last night I went through a very similar experience.  I dreamed that I was talking to a man.  In our conversation, which I can’t remember the details but I can remember telling him that I would probably get him something for his birthday which was going to be on Saturday, August 6.  In my dream I clearly saw the calendar and August 6 was on a Saturday.  (I never know which day of the week is gonna be a certain day of the month unless I look for it.  I haven’t been looking at the August calendar lately if ever at all.  I have no reason why.)  When I woke up from the dream, I didn’t remember immediately the calendar detail, but when I did; I got curious.  I looked upon my cell phone’s calendar and there it was: just as I saw in my dream….August 6 will fall on a Saturday.  That was so weird.

Will I ever visit Portland, Tennessee?  I don’t know.  What’s gonna happen on Saturday August 6?  Let’s just wait and see.  But these kind of experiences sometimes keep me wondering.  Have you ever gone through that experience?  Did anything happen? Well,  enjoy the rest of your weekend and hopefully there will be more mysteries to unfold.

Illustration by Anna Lorraine.

Friday The 13th

Last Friday the 13th happened in November 2015.  It was a sad day.  France was victim of a terrorist act and I lost my job at the school I was working.  It was also my brother’s birthday. (But that’s not a sad thing).

Today is also Friday the 13th and it’s my cousin’s birthday.  And I also lost my job today.  And I’m OK with it; being humiliated constantly by people who have hatred in their heart is not  working in a healthy working environment.  God will pay and He is still my Provider.  It’s a good thing that there hasn’t been any terrorists attacks. (At least, not that I know of…).

I can’t help to think, is it me?  I was respectful, punctual, I was studying my material and I worked alone.  It was understandable to sometimes make mistakes; I had just been learning to do that job for a month.  But hatred is intolerable, unfair, critical, disrespectful, inconsiderate, unmerciful and ruthless.  But just like last time, I put my situation before the Lord.  Last time, He fought for me and He paid for the injustice.  I know He will do it again.  I’ll probably never know; but I rest assured that He will provide for my daughter and me.

And devil….this is for you:  “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return.  The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.” Job 1:20.