God’s Justice Is Better

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I still remember the weeks previous to that day I lost my job from the school I was teaching.  The elementary school principal had been harassing me constantly, even if I did things the way the administrators wanted; all of my efforts were always wrong.  I felt stressed and totally depressed.  It was hard for me to keep a straight face for my students, my daughter and my family who were always calling me to see how were things doing.  I would refuge myself in prayer and also in my colleague teacher who was also feeling stressed by the overwhelming work that wouldn’t allow us to enjoy life.

It felt like a prison: we were confined to our endless hours of work because time during the days and nights was just not enough.  My voice was hoarse, my blood pressure was high; my body was reflecting what my mind and emotions were battling against.  It was like a time bomb.

Then, some strange events happened.  I was being transferred to another area with another principal.  I was relieved but my relief would be short lived.  The elementary principal managed to detain my transfer for one more week so she could manage to make some write ups and get me fired.  She falsely accused me of insubordination because it was the only reason she could make up to get me fired.  I had never been late, I had never been absent, my lesson plans and my work were always on time, I was respected by colleagues, my students and their parents.  But she didn’t like me because I had the same MA. Ed she had plus I was bilingual unlike her.  She felt I was a threat. (Not that I was interested in her position anyway).

Yes, I questioned why God had allowed me to leave the place that had been my home for so long and arrive to Texas to go through such a sad experience.  Where was God when I was praying to Him?  Had he been listening to my voice?  Had He been seeing my tears?  Where was His justice?  After that experience, the human in me wanted revenge.  But God told me that He would pay; that I had to let Him do His work.  Through His Word, He told me that He would sustain me. But it was very, very hard for the human in me.

Before a whole month went by, I had found another job.  But still the human in me; kept fighting inside.  I fought the grudge, the frustration, the sadness and hopelessness.  But God kept telling me that He would pay.  I had been working for a month now and I wanted to call one of my colleagues to see how they were doing.  But this past Friday, one of them called me.  She told me that there had been a huge firing at the school and that she had been laid off because of overstaffing.  I was sad for her; but I offered all the help I could give her about how I had survived for these past two months.  Then she told me: “Six teachers were laid off and only one administrator: the elementary school principal was fired too.”

Yes, God had done His justice.  I didn’t have to move a finger or get revenge on my own. God had done it for me.  Her “victory” was short lived.  I just hope that through this experience, that old principal learned a valuable lesson.  That sooner or later, evil deeds are like a boomerang; they will come right back at you.

So let’s just do good to our fellow man; that will also come right back at us.

New Year: New Hope

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Lying here on my bed (well, not a bed actually….I sleep on top of two pieces of foam, a sleeping bag and a quilt) I started reflecting on my lessons from the past year.  It was such an intense year.  Moving from one country to another.  Starting all over again, taking risking decisions; it’s all part of the process of living and changes.

I learned that even though making life changing decisions isn’t easy; you won’t know if the outcome will work unless you try.  You have to fight insecurities, fear of the unknown, loss of faith and many other mind bogging dilemmas.  But I remembered telling my daughter, months before we left Puerto Rico, that I had to take a risk because I didn’t want to end up asking myself in the future: What if?

I learned to have faith.  Losing my job as a teacher after three months of intense work made me have more faith.  It wasn’t easy, some insecurities wanted to take over and I can’t deny that I even got depressed.  That’s one of the flaws of being human.  But God never failed me.

He confirmed over and over again that this change came from Him.  The devil was not happy and used that old principal to make me doubt God.  I still remember being shocked but calm.  When the days passed by and I started receiving phone calls for job interviews, I knew that everything would be alright.

If God moves you; He will back you up.  Even if something bad happens; which it will most likely happen, just keep praying and doing what you’re supposed to do.  Don’t let depression or fear put you down or make you anxious.  He will arrive in perfect timing.

Right now, I rest assured that He is showing me the way.  Each day is different than the last one and you will see how life will surprise you.

So don’t lose your hope in your journey; the best is yet to come!

(Drawing by Anna Lorraine)

Happy New Journey 2016

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I don’t know where you are or what are you expecting for this new year.  But all I know is this….that I wish that you never forget where you come from and that your journey through this year will be filled with much laughter,  joy and blessings.  Happy and Prosperous 2016!

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Great Changes

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A year ago December 2014, I had a dream.  I still can remember it like it was yesterday.  I was at my apartment in Puerto Rico.  I saw myself walking from my room into the hallway.  When I reached the living room, I saw my younger sister at my left getting farther away from me.  As I approached the balcony, I noticed my brother there, he seemed kinda worried.  The upper gates of the balcony were missing and when I looked at where there was supposed to be the airport; all I could see was a different view.   I thought that all that was happening to me was real until I felt my self floating in the air. The landscape that I was seeing was all green, like if I was observing it all from an airplane.  Then, I looked at the sky and the clouds were moving in front of me.

I asked the Lord: “What are you showing me, Lord?”  Then I started to see lots of different faces of people unknown to me and when the images all ceased, two big words appeared in front of me: “Great Changes”.  I woke up, and I prayed meditating on the significance of this dream.

Today, one year later December 2015, I have seen the outcome of that dream.  In less than a year, my life has been turned upside down and it’s still changing.  I had to leave my apartment in front of the airport; and even the upper gate of the balcony was removed the same day I handed in the key. I had to leave my sisters back in PR the day I left the island I had called “home” for the last 41 years. I saw that same green landscape from the window of the plane that brought me to Texas. My brother who lives in Colorado, has kept a close watch on me since I arrived, always worrying if I’m doing OK.  I have met so many new faces since I arrived….I have lost count.  But my new experiences have not stopped.

Bad Changes

I came to Texas as a new bilingual teacher for a charter school.  I worked really hard to do the best that I could. I worked seven days a week. I was never late for work, I was never absent….I followed every rule the administration asked for, my lesson plans were always on time.  My students and their parents liked and respected me; specially those that were mischievous.  I would think that I would survive the whole year doing what I should do.  I had group control; lessons were being imparted but there was a change that I did not expect.  The principal that supervised me, didn’t like me.  For some unknown reason she felt that I was not doing my job right.  She didn’t like that I got sick (even though I went to work sick to avoid an absence), even though I used her recommendations in the classroom, it was never enough for her.  The administration suddenly gave me a transfer to PreK (without me asking for it) but she managed to retain me for one more week so she could get me fired.  She used excuses that had nothing to do with my performance as a teacher.  I just prayed and I didn’t defend myself.  But she made a whole story to the administration and she got her temporary victory.

After three months of working hard, on Friday November 13 I was suddenly unemployed.  I received my last check to sustain me.  But God had not let me go.   I was utterly disappointed, to the point that I questioned the reasons why God had made me leave what already was familiar to me, to bring me to a place almost unknown and go through such hardship.  But very soon, He let me know that He has been with me all the time.

I recalled the way He brought me to Texas.  It was impossible for me, without any income at all to leave my home and arrive to Texas.  He made it possible.  Since the day I arrived, He had sustained me in every way possible.  He kept me safe from accidents, He fought for me and comforted me.  He keeps doing so.

Good Changes

Today, December 20, I am currently working in a Dallas government office, plus tomorrow I have a very interesting job interview and my daughter and I are doing fine.  He keeps a close watch on me; His providence never leaves my home.  I depend solely on God.  He opens and closes doors.  I am actually happy that I’m not a teacher in that school anymore.  I know something better is coming. That old principal thought that she was harming me; but the truth is that she was doing me a favor.  God is putting me in a better place.  He will make me rise and soar with His blessings.

If you are going through a difficult time in your job; lift your head up.  Depend on Him.  He will make you rise.  Don’t lose your faith.  He’s not over yet.

 

Living In Texas

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Oh hello there!  I hope life has been treating you all well.  Sorry that I haven’t updated my blog in a while.  Just as the title said, I’ve been living in Texas.  But things didn’t go as I originally planned.  The original plan was for my daughter, Midna and me to go together.  It didn’t go that way.  I had to come here alone to find a place for them to follow me later.

But things have been happening fast.  Two days after I arrived in Dallas, I got a new car. With no credit, no down payment….I got a brand new car.  Miracles DO happen.  This week, God willing, I get my new apartment in Texas.  After that, I can send for my daughter and Midna.  It hasn’t been easy but it surely is blissful.  Sometimes you just have to wait a little, work hard and you will be rewarded.

I’ve been working for two weeks in my new school as a fourth grade bilingual Math teacher.  It hasn’t been easy, but loving to teach kids makes it much better.  There’s a ton of work and I’m still getting the hang of it.  Sometimes I feel that everything goes faster than me; but I’m willing to pick up the pace and throttle along.

I miss my family but soon we will be together; faith works that way.  So, if you’re thinking about changing your life in a big way: pray to God and give it a try.  It took me five years to finally make it happen; but I don’t regret anything yet.  Hopefully I will never do.  After I get my own apartment with fast internet, a TV with more commodities I will put more updates and details about all of these new happenings which are great.  Unknown but great.  God Bless you all!

(Drawing by Anna Lorraine)

Passing The Test

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Hello there!

Sorry I’ve been busy. A belated Happy Father’s Day to all of you who are responsible fathers and to all of you who like me, are mothers who have to be fathers too.  Hahaha!

But I have good news.  On a previous post I wrote that I had to take a test called the TeXes.  Well, the first time that I took the test, I was so distracted that when I took the test & the scores came, I was 6 points short of passing the test.  Instead of giving up because of my broken heart and my first failed intent of passing the TeXes I decided try it once more.

I scheduled a studying period in the mornings after my prayers & my Bible reading time.  (You know, God always has to come first).  Then I worked with Pearson after 11 AM during the rest of the day.  So I was literally working & studying, even though working with Pearson are temporary projects.  But I really needed the money.  It wasn’t easy to disconnect myself from my personal fears & feelings.  But studies and work can help you get distracted a lot from your burdened heart.  Of course, God helps too.  I guess that’s one reason we have sometimes to fight for the things we want.  Sometimes we think that we have to sit back and expect things to happen, because God has to tell us what to do.  But that’s not right.

“Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them.  Be strong and very courageous.  Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go.”  Joshua 1:6-7

This is what God told Joshua when he had to lead Israel into the promised land.  God tells us to work hard, be courageous and strong so that we can go to the promised land.  He won’t do the possible for us; He will do the impossible for us.  Working, being strong and being courageous are completely possible for us.  We have to work to achieve our goals.

So I worked, studied and I prayed to God during those weeks to at least pass the test with a score of 240 (which is the minimum score to pass).  When it was two days before the test; I risked not gaining more money from Pearson but I had to review my Math knowledge.  It was a risk but if I could pass the test, it would be worth it.

On Saturday morning, June 13, I took the TeXes for the second time.  It took me 4 hours to complete it. I felt accomplished and tired but somehow I knew I would be rewarded for my hard work.  I have to admit that I was nervous for the next days.

On Tuesday June 16 the test scores arrived to my email.  I called my daughter to be by my side because my heart was pounding so loud I could hear it in my ears.  These results would decide if we would start a new living or we would go to Florida and start from the beginning: trying to look for a job.  Texas is better because I already had a job offer starting with a great salary and doing what I like: teaching.

When I opened the PDF with the results, I saw it right there:  240 points….and below in green font the word: PASSED !!  My daughter and I hugged and screamed so loud.  God had answered my prayer with the exact points I had asked for.  He rewarded my faith, my hard work and my effort. My last paycheck from Pearson was deposited in my bank account with less money; but I don’t care. It was worth the risk.  I believe that my professional life is about to change for the better.

There are still some more challenges up ahead.  I have to pass the Bilingual Supplementary test too. But it’s not necessary to start teaching.  I can teach with what I have. Everything is running according to His plan.  I firmly believe that my God has everything under His control.  He will provide for all of our needs in His perfect time.

So if you have plans, put them in His hands; I will pray for you.  Believe that He wants you to follow the purpose He has for your life.  God is good all the time; all the time God is good.

(Drawing by Anna Lorraine)

Happy Mother’s Day!

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Let’s be grateful for all of our mothers out there.  Mothers are not perfect but they still bless us with unconditional love & understanding.  If you have your mother still alive; you are rich.  Today let her know how special she is for your life.  Well, not only today…..but everyday.

God Bless!

Travels

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I’m writing this post while I’m in Orlando, Florida.  Yes!  I got to get on a plane at last.  I’m going to stay living in the United States. And that implies that I have to do some things first.  Life is so weird sometimes.

I didn’t have money to buy a plane ticket.  I still don’t.  Somebody else paid for this ticket.  And it’s the third time that this happens to me.  On 2012, I traveled twice and I never paid for the tickets.  I went to Denver, Colorado and then to Orlando, Florida.  Do I like other people paying for my tickets? No.

I wish I could pay it myself.  That would mean that I’m independent financially.  Right now, I don’t have much money for expenses on this trip.  I wish I could go to Disney, Universal Studios and the other parks, but I can’t.  I’m spending all this trip, trapped in somebody else’s mobile home.  It sucks.

But it’s good to have hope that everything will change.  I’ve always had to work hard to obtain everything I have.  Some people don’t make any efforts and they can have everything they want.  I still don’t understand why does this happen.  I feel like sometimes I am being punished while others live in abundance hence they do nothing to gain their blessings.

I know that I’m not the only one who goes through this.  And there is a Psalm that talks about when we see the wicked prosper while we wait on the Lord.  That is Psalm 137.  We need to be thankful for what we have before we can receive more.

God has a creative way for dealing with each one of us.  We are all different and He knows that.  That’s why we all have to wait on Him; some more and some less.  Some people might think that I don’t have faith.  I do have faith.  But there are others who can’t live in abundance because they will forget the Lord.  It happened to me a long time ago.

God knows when I will be prepared to prosper.  That’s the day when I will be thankful and keep on working for the Kingdom.  We have to prosper in the way Job did.  He was thankful in abundance and in his time of need.  We can’t blame ourselves and just keep seeking His love within our lives.

So, if you are having a time of need, have faith.  I will pray for you and you can pray for me.

Have a great weekend!  God Bless.

Between Heartbreaks and Tests

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These days I got a little lost within myself.  Late last year I was so focused on setting my sights on my plans for leaving PR and getting a teaching job in TX.  But when the new year started, I got distracted.  Someone came into my life when I thought that having feelings for a guy would never happen again for me.  But it happened, and it was fast, unexpected and strong.  Then, like a flash….it was all over.

Nothing significant ever happened, just some calls, messages and tears.  Illusions can come and go so fast, you don’t even realize when it starts and when it ends. But between all those broken illusions, I lost my north.  My focus went numb.  I hardly picked up a book to read, to study.  My mind was lacking all kinds of concentration on what I had planned for my daughter and me.  And time kept running and days kept passing.  All my plans for studying dissipated like mist.

The day of the test came, I drank a lot of coffee and took it.  Too late to cancel, there was no turning back.  And now to wait for the results.  I wish I didn’t get distracted.  I wish I studied more.  I wish….I never lost my north.  I would feel happier now.  Next week the results will be ready.

We puertorricans say that when we lose everything, we lose “the rope and the goat”.  I just wish that this won’t be the case; but if it is….I will take a second chance, no matter where it comes.

No more distractions, no more heartbreaks.  Life has to go on…. God is still in control.

Have a Holy Week!

Shyness

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I’ve been reading a little bit about shy people.  I got curious because someone I know expressed to me that he is shy.  A person who is shy is afraid of rejection.  We might believe that everybody is afraid of being rejected.  But I’ve known people who can handle rejection much better than others.  Those people are rejected but they keep insisting.  I honestly admire them.  If you’re one of those people who are persistent at the face of rejection; I take off my hat to you.  Thanks to bold people, empires have been built. Wow,  I wish I was like people who are persistent and bold.

But I’m not like that, unfortunately.  I have my grade of shyness and sometimes I’ve dared to be bold.  But it hasn’t worked all the time.  That gets me frustrated and many, many times I’ve desisted to pursue a goal.  I’ve wondered many times:”what if I should have done that?  What if I should have said that?”  Doesn’t this happen to you too?

Could our personalities change so that we can be bolder?  I think it can.  But we have to change the way we think and that’s not an easy task.  God told Joshua “Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land.”  Joshua 1:6

God likes people who are brave.  But does that mean that he doesn’t like people who are not?  No, it doesn’t mean that.  God loves us all.  That’s why He gives us His Holy Spirit to help us develop the courage that we need to achieve our goals.

2 Timothy 1:7 “For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.”

We are full of the Spirit of God and His Spirit will help us be brave.  We just have to let Him take over our fears, insecurities and frustrations.  We can be brave, strong and courageous like Joshua.  We just have to remember Who is inside of us transforming our shyness into courage.  Until next time, God bless you!

Resolutions

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Well, it’s almost the middle of the first month of this year.  Have you already started your new year resolutions?  Is it a diet?  Is it to exercise more?  Is it to go back to school and finish your college degree?  Is it to get a new job?  Well, whatever it is….make a plan.  I hope you already bought an agenda with very useful calendars where I can put my next plan into action.

If you’re not an organized person; an agenda could be very helpful; unless you’re such a mess that can’t even remember where did you put it in the first place….  But try to keep it in just one place so that way you can always find it.  Throw or give away the things that you don’t need.  You’ll have more space and more visibility in case you lose stuff.

This year has started OK for my daughter and me.  This last week I finished the a training for a program to be a teacher in Texas.  I’m pretty excited and expectant about that.  It’s like heading into this great adventure into the unknown.  There’s still nothing certain until I pass the TeXes; but the day is there: March 31st, 2015.

Steps have been taken, now it’s to keep disciplining myself into studying and reviewing what I have learned so far.  God will make His final decision; even if the decision isn’t what I expected….I will accept the outcome.  His plans are better than mine.  He knows if I will succeed or fail.  He knows if my steps will lead me to my victory or my defeat.  It’s so good to know that God is still in control.  Because He knows the future and He wants the best for me.

I will leave you with this verse:  “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.”  Proverbs 3:5-6

Make this verse yours this year!  God Bless You ❤

Have a Happy New Year 2015!!

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I often visualize a new year like a book filled with blank pages.  When an old year finishes; the book closes when the final chapter called December 31 ends at 11:59 PM.  What will the new year bring?  We can only wish for good things, health, prosperity or maybe achieve the goals that were kept on hold during this year that passed.  What did you leave unfinished?  Was it a diet, a trip plan, your studies, unfinished work, a debt, a promise…?

Did you have to say good-bye to someone?  Did you welcome somebody new to your life?  Will this new year bring new friends, new acquaintances, or maybe a new love?  You could probably answer the first two questions but not the last one.  But you know what?  It’s better that way.  Let this new year be like a huge surprise.  Visualize it like a wrapped gift with a huge bow.  You don’t know what’s inside; but it’s exciting to guess what’s in it for you.

Live everyday to the fullest; be thankful, be expectant, be hopeful, be disciplined…. If you have a goal of reading the Bible, do it.  If you have plan to take care of your health, don’t waste another day.  Take care of your body and your soul.  Grow closer to God, to your family and to your friends.  Grow closer to yourself.  You deserve happiness, peace, love, good health & prosperity.  That is my new year wish for you.  God Bless You!

I am the Alpha and Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End.”  Revelation 22:13

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Merry Christmas!

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I just wanted to post this message to wish all who read this, a very happy Christmas with your loved ones.  The most important part of this celebration isn’t gifts, food or even visiting family and friends.  It’s having a silent night remembering that God loved us enough to send His begotten Son to save us.  Let us be grateful for His love, His blessings…His sacrifice.  Peace on Earth; Good will to all men!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS CHRIST

Do Not Worry

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Have you ever felt that you wish that there were 30 hours in a day instead of just 24?  I’ve been feeling like this a lot lately.  Sometimes I wish there were even 8 or 9 days a week so I can at least rest one. Juggling between so many chores at the same time can be really excruciating.

You know it’s good to have things to do.  Being bored can make you lazy and start having a sedentary life.  Sedentary means bad to your health.  But being too busy can also be bad.  Stress, anxiety….not a good thing either.  We must look for a balance or, in other words, just take it easy.

I often think that when good things come; they all arrive to your life at the same time.  We want to accept everything because we know that nothing lasts forever, specially the blessings.  Now I’m able to work, but then I won’t know if I’ll have an available job in the future.  That’s the tricky peculiarity of being unstable professionally.  We are obligated to live by faith.  We don’t know what the future holds.

That’s why I love these Bible verses that I want to share with you:

“Then Jesus said to his disciples: Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear.  Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes.  Consider the ravens:  They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them.  And how much more valuable you are than birds!

Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?  Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?”  Luke 12:22-26

Jesus really nailed it, didn’t he?  We constantly worry about our relatives, about the news, about our jobs and about ourselves.  But we can still have rest in the middle of our constant duties.  The only day we have is today.  Yesterday is gone forever; tomorrow is uncertain.

Let’s just enjoy today: hug your kids, tell them you love them.  Call your parents if you are blessed enough to still have them alive and well.  Pray to God and be thankful.  Rest in Him and He will give you peace that passes understanding.

Ebola, Chikungunya or Dengue

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Luke 21:11 “There will be earthquakes, famines and pestilences in various places, and fearful events and great signs from heaven.”

The one who said that was non other than Jesus himself.  He was talking about these days.  Is there any doubt about it?  Dengue and chikungunya are illnesses that are caused by mosquitoes.  I had dengue when I was a kid; fortunately I haven’t had chikungunya.  But people who are very close to me have had it and it’s not pretty.

These two illnesses (chikungunya and dengue) have caused a lot of suffering these days, at least here in Puerto Rico.  I know that in other Latin American countries they are suffering the devastating effects from these pestilences too.  Fortunately ebola hasn’t arrived here and I pray it never does.

Because ebola, seems to be the worst.  This morning I read the news that there is another person infected in Texas, what’s so worrisome about this pestilence is how highly contagious it is.  You can even get it if you have contact with the sick person’s sweat.

There are so many questions about these illnesses.  Are they caused by man?  Are they evolutions of nature?  Were they caused by chemical weapons?  We still don’t know.  There are people who joke about this questioning that ‘why are we gonna get worried? nobody escapes alive from this life anyway”.  That’s maybe true; but, how would you feel if one of your loved ones is sick by an incurable plague?

Is there anywhere to go?  Can we escape from this?  I am particularly concerned because my plans are to move to Texas for next year plus I also have many relatives living there.  But today, the Bible put my worries at ease.

“But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him.  He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream.  It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green.  It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.”  Jeremiah 17:7-8

I don’t have to say that the tree, water, roots, stream, heat, leaves, drought and fruit are all symbolism’s.  The man is the tree, the water is the Spirit of God, the heat are the tribulations or pestilences, the leaves are the works of man.  The drought symbolizes scarceness and the fruits are the fruits of the Spirit living inside of us.

We have nothing to fear.  Nothing will separate us from the love of God.  Let your hand be guided by the One who still has everything under control.  He is still Sovereign over us.

Satanism Vs. Atheism

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Do you know what is the difference between a Satanist and an atheist?  The true simple answer is: nothing.  There is no difference at all.  Now you may say:  but the atheist do not believe in God or the devil.  And you’re right.  But neither do the Satanists!  The church of Satan is a humanist organization; in other words: they are atheist. They don’t adore the devil. They adore man. Many church goers ignore this information completely; they have been deceived by Hollywood and sensationalism for a very long time.

News and pictures about people dressed in black cloaks, killing animals, drinking blood and virgin sacrifices are all images that don’t occur in the Satanic Temple.  But the real question remains: is this really a good thing?  The Satanic Temple sells us the positive thinking, the man-god concept, the word declarations….but, do you know what’s worse about this?  That these philosophies are being taught in many of our churches as we speak.

Our own declarations are substituting the powerful Word of God.  Our positive thoughts are substituting the mind of Christ in our way of thinking.  The man-god concept is substituting the sovereignty of the Almighty God working in our lives.

But the funny thing about all of this is that atheist are always bragging about being free from religion.  Think again!  Cause Atheism is an organized religion.  I already mentioned where it comes from: the Satanic Temple.  So they may argue that they don’t have to go to a temple to worship.  Neither do millions of Roman-Catholics but they are still called “Catholics”.

Atheist’s so called “freedom” is just an illusion.  Can they be free of sickness?  Can they be free of depression?  Can they be free of their own mortality?  Can they be free of loneliness?  No, they cannot.  Humans cannot free themselves of problems or situations…not even positive thinking will save anybody.  Not even being a genius will help anybody from their fate.  Just ask Stephen Hawkings, he’s a genius tied to a wheelchair.

The devil doesn’t want people to believe in God.  He wants people to be sick, to be lonely, depressed, to die without hope.  Unfortunately, his scheme is making people live in despair, taking their own lives, thinking that there is no way out.  But God is real like the invisible air that surrounds us.  We cannot live without him.

But, what can we learn about all of this?  Atheist are Satanist; they just don’t know it.  And if they know it; they probably don’t care.  But the sad thing is that one day, they will care.  But by then, it will probably be too late for them.

So, church be on alert!  Parents, keep an eye on what it is taught to your children at school.  Remember, God is powerful to deliver us from any sin, there is nothing that He cannot do.

Ugly

CIMG2557  Hello!  My name is Midna.  I live with my two servants: Lauriann & Anna.  Yesterday a visitor came to my dwelling place or should I say: my castle.  My servants kept me safe in a room so that that visitor couldn’t harm me.  But I could smell her from a mile away.  I was quite content in that safe room.  I had everything I needed:  my food, my water and my favorite potty box.  Oh! And I also have a tall bed that almost touches the ceiling from which I can see through the window all the tiny moving objects that I long to catch & play with… or maybe eat them.

So I was quite comfortable but I could still hear that stranger walking around and talking about me.  Yeah!  She said I was “ugly”.  My servants insisted that I was not.  But the stranger stubbornly kept saying that I was the ugliest cat that she had ever seen.  She also added that the previous cat (whom I’ve never met) was prettier. The nerve!  What did I ever do to deserve to be insulted like that?

All I do is play around with anything that I can find.  My favorite pastimes are: following balls and hunting my snacks and eating them.  I still wonder why my servants grimace whenever I eat my snacks.  It’s so much fun to watch while my snacks try to escape but I always catch them…..mmmmeow  and that crunchy sensation while I chew them is sensational.  My servants call them “cockroaches”  but I call them “yummy”.

I like my life and I even have a friend.  His name is Marlute and he lives next door.  He’s much older than me but I like to bother him whenever he visits and stays over.  I like intimidating him with my furry tail.  He may be bigger, older and probably cuter by questionable standards; but I’m funnier!

I am loved, well cared and I have my own kingdom.  And, I don’t give a meow who thinks I’m ugly!

So, bite me!

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Thanks for the laughs!

Depression is not a joke

I can’t end this week without remembering my favorite entertainer Robin Williams.  It took me too long to just sink in the reality of his passing.  Even though, he made me laugh so many times, I always sensed some tragedy about him.  It happens when you know that a person has so many talents and they get into depressions.

I have admitted in a previous post about my own fight against depression.  Those of us who are musicians, artists and are involved in the world of arts, are most susceptible to fall into the claws of depression, that’s well known in the mental health branch.  I also admit that I don’t take antidepressants; even though I should, but I have put my faith into God.  He’s been doing a wonderful job whatsoever.  No suicidal tendencies; even when the hopelessness might be at maximum strength!  God is that powerful!

I wish Robin Williams might’ve found that refuge in God.  I noticed that when he finished his performances, he usually shouted: “God Bless You”.  Were those simple words for him?  He must’ve had some fear on Him.  But why not let God carry him during his pain?

My sister and I were sitting and reflecting about reasons to commit suicide.  We concluded that powerful reasons would be:  (taking an example of the persecution of Christians in Muslim countries) women who are sold as sex slaves and have seen how terrorist have killed their children and spouses, even men who have seen how terrorist rape their daughters and wives and are unable to protect them.  Those are terrible reasons where suicide might be a way to escape an uncertain future.  I believe that God has the power to turn everything around.  But my human mind cannot fathom how can He do it.  That’s when faith makes it’s entrance.

Faith makes the impossible, possible.   People may think that God is evil because he allows evil things to happen in this world.  But God is not responsible for the decisions that humans make.  Man decides his own fate.  Man decides to follow evil; God does not force us to serve Him.  That decision has to come from ourselves. 

Robin Williams decided to end his life.  He didn’t have to see his children murdered before his eyes.  He didn’t have to deny God and hope that some terrorist wouldn’t rape his wife while he had to watch there helplessly.  He may have had health problems but he had money to pay the best doctors to treat him, he had a successful career, fame, money, a big house, cars, love from his family and friends. But yet, why would he feel alone?  Why did he think that he had to end it all?   I doubt that it was God’s decision to end his life so soon. 

Even if we try to deny it or if we don’t want to face it:  there is a void inside of our lives.  There’s no money, fame, even love of our families that can fill that void.  And it’s an important void; because it can make the difference between wanting to live or die.  It’s that spiritual need that every human being has.  We can’t just depend of our own self sufficiency.  We are not almighty to change everything in our lives.  We are human beings, prone to make mistakes and die.  WE NEED GOD!!! 

God gave Robin Williams the wonderful gift of laughter and make people happy.  He used that gift gracefully but in the end decided to make us cry.  His ultimate decision made me sad.  My heart goes out to his family, friends and all of the fans out there.

Work In Progress

Stole my parking

The other day I went to the Chinese restaurant near my apartment to buy some food. It was Saturday, who wants to cook on a Saturday, right? I drove there and when I arrived at front of the restaurant, I put the signal to the left, I was happy because there were two parking spots available. When I’m at a full stop waiting for a car to pass so I can park, a small car behind it suddenly took the parking that I was waiting for. Not just that, the guy parked so bad that he occupied both parking spots that were available making it impossible for me to park where I was so patiently waiting for.

I got so mad but I refrained myself from screaming and went to find another parking space. I found another one in the other parking lot they got.  When I entered the restaurant to place my order, the guy who stole both parking spots was already ordering. He was a young man with tattoos on one of his arms. I don’t have a thing against people with tats, but that’s what I most remember about this guy in particular. I wanted to tell him so many things (ok, ‘tell’ is not the right word, ‘yell’ is more like it). But again, I refrained myself. I didn’t want to make a scene in front of the cashier or the restaurant staff. But I was still so upset about what he had done.  I felt like I wanted to rip his head off….(yeah, that violent!).

After the guy placed his order, he did an about face and smiled at me. I just couldn’t smile back. That’s so not me. I could read on his face the disappointment of me not smiling back at him. I bet he was wondering why I reacted that way.  Probably he didn’t even notice that I was awaiting for one of those parking spots that he took.  At the time, I didn’t even notice if he was looking at me or not.

But then I thought, that even though he wronged me, at the end I had found another parking spot available.  I analyzed that me being so upset, instead of just letting it go, was damaging myself not him.

If I had yelled at him and made a scene, what testimony would I have given of the love of Christ in my life? I did fail when I stayed upset and didn’t smile back….I don’t justify what I did.  But it would have been better to just let the anger go, specially when I had found a solution to my problem so easily.  I often envy those folks who get disappointed and easily let it go, instead of holding grudges.

Oh well, I know now that I’m still a work in progress.